pause this game.

so i can breath just a little bit.
relentless doesn't have a limit.
the conclusions we make from the sights we take, make the strongest the most vulnerable to break.
breathe into me, the doors are waiting to close.
and the elevator dings itself shut, we're the only ones to know
that we escape to this other reality
a peaceful place, that's just you and me
deciding not to take life so seriously,
because some of the greatest things are not cracked up with what they are to be

watching her awkwardly from the distance , her glare's upon me
cause i sang and i danced, without a trouble or a worry
and although her friend wanted to play with me,
i fulfilly declined cause i wanted to be free.

free from the trouble and free from the sad,
i just wanna see the good without thinking about the bad
it seems like she's bitter, and me? just a tad
i'm pushing myself, i think i can, i know i can.

challenge after challenge, struggle after struggle,
i kick my feet over my head and out of my nose i breathe bubbles,
cause i push off of the walls and i continue the race,
nothing can hold you back in water, 100's about pace
stroke after stroke, my body wants to give in
but i can't do that, that's not the life i want to live in
the gh0st of the present destroys the ghost of the past,
and every time your kickin, you just wanna go fast
but if you sprint too much, you kill the point of the race,
just get to the other side, cause in life speeds not the case.

/gh0st.

Dime is back!

I'm bored! 'Tis all. Peace!

believe.

its a tuesday, possibly the worst day of the week. but this week goes by fast.
it will at least. lately i've been so busy that when i'm not busy i feel like i should be doing something of some sort of productivity. there's alot that i have to get to this month and the month after. so i'll take it easy now, i guess.
there's been lots of change. lots and lots lately.
the busiest part of the year for band is over, thank goodness.
we received superior ratings all around as expected.
and hey i can't wait for the int'l trip next year. it'll be great. :)

the practices get harder everyday for me. i'm not gonna lie its tough and at times i just want to give in but don't count on that. there will be no giving up and i gotta push through. because i know if i do it'll be a rewarding experience.

school is school as it always has been.

but now, there's hope. new hope.
i don't know what to make of this exactly yet. should i let this unfold?
i know i'm scared. but i know i'd like to again.
it kinda sounds like what happened last summer all over again. except what happened previous isn't as redeemable as it was previous.

am i gonna go for it? i don't know the answer to that question yet.
somethings holding me back but idk what it is.

i hate how ironic things turn out sometimes. i have a feeling this situation will prove to be very cynical.

gh0st.

Big Breath

let's play a game.
let's get in the water. swim to the other side and back and see who wins.

i had my first swim meet ever yesterday.
what i thought was going to be a drag, turned out to be a fun and exciting day.
warmup was hell though.

okay, 100yd freestyle.
i want 50 yds of each stroke
and again.
then dives.
jeeeezus.

but any ways. for my times for my first meet.
freestyle : 42 sec
butterfly : i refuse to know
back: 47 sec (this is going to be my stroke. i know it.)
breast: 43 sec

afterwards i went out to cheesecake factory with my family.
then to the bookstore down in best of the west and i dropped by ryans work to keep him some company for like 5 minutes and i got home and played COD until ryan arrived.

COD. omg, haha.
i'm getting ridiculous at this noscoping stuff.
its too addicting. but anyways,

its about halfways through lent. i looked back at my resolutions from last year. they were something along the lines of this.

-get my life together
-get back in shape
-take care of yourself
-read more

and of that? well i've done all of it. and i will keep doing it.
this no-facebook thing is really working out in my favor. thank god. :)

gh0st.

diving right in.

this week has been just that. in the water and out.

swimming. i'm doing it cause i didn't think i could.
so i'm proving myself wrong. one step at a time.
when i first started 25 yards was my enemy. now i can probably swim a 100 yard freestyle no problem. backstroke maybe. breast yeah and fly is well fly.

i've been barely getting sleep this week too it seems. its whatevskies though.
i'm plowing right along.

-jason